Mental Breakdown OR Hormonal Explosion

Just a few hours later…I had a total hormonal breakdown.  And just when I thought the extra hormones were doing nothing but good in me.  I had been calm and understand in every situation since I became pregnant.  Tonight it was the fact that I couldn’t log into the blog that threw me over the edge…I think the main reason for the breakdown is the bloody uterus.  I just heard a heart beating inside me…I can’t even imagine life without this baby, It doesn’t have fingers or toes yet, but it’s my baby! I think that I just didn’t want to think about the fact that there could be a problem…so I focused on my expired e-mail address.  I called Adam in tears, he left his boss, his coworkers and his bosses boss from Raleigh to listen.  I don’t for sure know what the breakdown was about because deep down I know my baby is going to be just fine…I mean if it wasn’t the doctor wouldn’t let me out of the office to make the trip back to China.