15 Weeks

I am beginning to eat a little more.  Thursday I ate a small portion of bland white fish, some carrots (which I haven’t eaten since the carrot incident), a slice of garlic toast (which was HUGE! I haven’t been able to eat toast lately, let alone with seasoning) and a half of a grapefruit.  I have also started drinking milk again…the only way I can drink it is mixed with chocolate (the milk here is in cartons and that doesn’t do much to the flavor…especially when you are flavor sensitive like I happen to be right now).  I have added half sandwiches to my food rotation (grilled cheese or peanut butter).  The biggest celebration for me was the chicken I ate on Friday.  Chicken was the first food that I couldn’t eat (week 6), the first smell that made me sick and the food that no matter how it came up in conversation totally ruined anything I attempted to eat.  Jodie and I took a trip to Shenzhen for lunch at a Thai/Indian restaurant and I ordered boneless chicken (seasoned with lemon…which I could eat whole, ginger…which is great for settling the stomach and Indian seasonings…THE RISK) with a side of fries (my safe food) and some naan.   Jodie ordered curry and fish…and the smell didn’t bother me!  Food still really scares me and I don’t look forward to eating anything but I am feeling soooooo much better and I only had one bad day this week (and this bad day was the equivalent of a good day 2 weeks ago).  Things continue to look up and hopefully food won’t be an issue at all on our Japan trip. 

*I typed this up on Friday after being so excited about overcoming new foods, however Saturday I traumatized my driver by getting out of the car and throwing up in the corner of the parking garage and before I knew it I was back on my dry cereal and apple diet.  It is very discouraging especially after such a great week to have 4 days of nausea and vomiting.  I can’t decide if its worse to see a little light, get excited then realize you are still stuck, or if it would be worse to be consistently sick and not have any expectations.  I feel like I haven’t been a real human being in over 2 months. Even last week when I felt good it is hard to feel really good when you think the feeling is only temporary.  I am so glad that the baby is growing and is healthy…that’s all I can ask for.  I am truly blessed in so many ways and I have such a wonderful life, but this is me venting a bit. 

*****Cool Week 15 Fact: My baby is the size of an apple…I thought this is cool since I am very familiar with the size of an apple considering I have eaten at least 3 apples a day for the past 2 months.